Illusion, my beloved illusion, in the end, you faded away from me. You just left me here without a word or a sign, while I’m getting more and more addicted to your existence. This time I’m so confused and even helpless. I don’t know what I’ve done wrong, that makes you disappear in a split second. I thought that you’ve become real to me, but it seems I was completely wrong about this. Do you remember what I showed you on my little note book before? I feel BETRAYED. Do you? No matter what I do or how I try, you are still just an illusion, aren’t you? Or maybe I’m just an idiot… I should have realized this long time ago. But I didn’t, because I really deeply fell in love with the one, who is so unreal, just like an illusion. Did you know that? So please tell me, should I live with the memory of you for the next 3 years? Or should I let go of you then move on? I’m still waiting for the answer, though I know that you won’t even hear me asking…

My dear lord, show me the way, guide me, please…